Get Back Up Again

Tonight I received one of the toughest blows from the Enemy since I was freed from anxiety and insecurity about two months ago. However, I'm thankful for it because it showed me where I was weak. It's crazy how allowing even one lie to slip in can change one's perspective on life within minutes. I believe that's why God put 2 Corinthians 10:5 in the Bible, especially the end of it. "...and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." That's where I messed up tonight. I believed what the Devil was telling me over what my Savior was telling me. Jesus was telling me to not be anxious even though one of my eyes was beet red. He wanted me to believe what He said--to not care what people think even though I thought they were staring at me because my eye was so red. As a cashier, there is so much stress anyway--to keep smiling even when you're having a rough day. I was able to get through a lot of the night when I had my eyes focused on the Lord and His Word. But, when my eyes slipped I felt myself sinking like Peter the disciple when He walked on water. I'm so thankful for tonight, though, like I mentioned before. It was so rough, but God has taught me a lot. To get back up even when I fall down and that I can completely trust Him in even the smallest areas of my life. Hopefully, all this happening tonight has cured me from ever sleeping in my contacts ever again. I can be so stubborn at times!

One of the biggest lessons I learned tonight is that the Devil is not going down without a fight. He doesn't like the fact that the Lord has been working on my heart or the fact that I'm being a light for the Lord at work. I've got to be alert and ready because the Devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour (1 Peter 5:8).

The title of this particular blog is inspired by Toby Mac's song, "Get Back Up." It reminds me that when I fall and I will, to get back up because God is waiting to continue to use my struggles to conform me into the image of His Son. And for that I am forever grateful that God doesn't give up on any of His children.