"Feels like I've been here forever,
Why can't you just intervene,
Do you see the tears are falling?
And I'm falling apart at the seams,
But you never said the road would be easy,
But you said that you would never leave.
And you never promised that this life wasn't hard,
But you promised you'd take care of me,
So I'll stop searching for the answers,
I'll stop praying for an escape,
I'll trust you God with where I am,
And believe you will have your way,
Just have your way,
Just have your way."
The above song is called "Have Your Way" by Britt Nicole. I believe it describes my life perfectly over the last several months. I've been asking God "why?" a lot because I haven't understood what He's been doing in my life. I believe I need to stop asking that question and trust Him instead. The "why" questions have been a lot about why I'm stuck at the same job or why I can't be doing something that I love instead of barely squeezing by each month financially. Honestly, I don't know the answers to these questions, but I know the One who does. Life has been so overwhelming that on the 20 minute ride home from work I often let the tears fall. It'd be easy to just throw in the towel, but that's what the Enemy of my soul wants me to do. I don't know why I am where I am, but it's all part of the story that God is writing. I don't know where it's going to lead me over the next few years, but I am laying it in my Savior's hand. Those same hands that were nailed to the cross for me are the same hands that I can trust with my future.
