Psalm 121: Where Will My Help Come From?

"I lift my eyes toward the mountains.
Where will my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not allow your foot to slip;...
your Protector will not slumber.
Indeed, the Protector of Israel
does not slumber or sleep.
The Lord protects you;
the Lord is a shelter right by your side.
The sun will not strike you by day
or the moon by night.
The Lord will protect you from all harm;
He will protect your life.
The Lord will protect your coming and going
both now and forever."

{Psalm 121}

 

Too often I don't find my help in the Lord. Instead, I sink deep into despair. Even on Facebook, I don't completely share what's going on in my life. The raw feelings that I feel. And I strongly believe that that's okay. I should be going to the Lord first, before anyone else. However, it's not okay to not be real and pretend that my life is perfect. Too often, myself and most everyone, for that matter, portray that they have a perfect life. We all know that that's not so. I'm so thankful that with God, I don't have to put on a strong face. He already knows what I'm thinking and how I'm feeling at any given time. I, too often, make prayer soo complicated. I'm learning that I don't even have to say any words with God 'cause He knows my thoughts. He sees my tears. He's my Protector and He knows exactly what I need.

Change

If you're like me at all, you're not much for things changing. Change is uncomfortable. It leaves one filled with uncertainty. However, I believe our God allows circumstances to change so that we as human beings don't rely on anything or anyone other than God Himself. I often find myself uneasy and even trying to cling to the familiar. God doesn't want that for us, as His children. Relying or trusting in anything or anyone other than the Lord is not only unhealthy, but can cause others to become our idols. God knows that our hearts are wayward and He desires our utmost attention and affections. Anything that we put before God or desire more than Him is an idol.

 

Pretty much, God has been trying to get my attention. God hasn't completely removed everything that I've been trying to find my security in, but I believe it could come to that. I've been running to and confiding in people other than the One that cares about me the most. Just even the idea of people in my life moving away or leaving me, has revealed what I've put my security in. It's okay to not want people to move away, but for me to cling to the familiarity and find my security in people can be very detrimental to my relationship with God.